Thinking over Christmas.

It always surprises me how much people listen. It's like, WOW, people really listen to me!

I should learn from them. I'd be a better person by then.

I'm really touched. <3

Oh and I'm pretty sad because we're not that complete during Christmas. The twins are in HK. They'll be there 'til Jan 2nd, so they won't be here for New Year.

And it's kinda pretty "Ehhh." when Tatay Nick goes, "Christmas must be like this! Complete families! This should be tradition!"

But we're not complete. And it only reminds me that our family is broken. I don't know why. I wish we were close again.

IT'S NOT FUN.

WHY DID FAMILY DRAMA HAVE TO EXIST?!

I'm totally jealous of other families. We're not that big... but like, for a sorta small family, we're not that close. And we have so many complications and drama that it makes me sick.

I hope I don't get any of that with my siblings in the future.

Paul and I are really close. Though, Naomi's like totally the middle child. Kinda left out. She's so different e. And really, she's the rudest out of us three.